My Creature

[Ockham]

I had this dream roughly a year and a half ago. But I remember it so vividly that just thinking about it does two things to me: One I get shivers down my spine and the other is I feel completely comforted by it. Which if you have ever felt both at the same time is a very strange combination.

I was living in a different state at the time, and in a room that I was, well not nessicarily afriad of I just felt as if I wasn't the only person or being present. I remember a couple times when I had friends over they explained that they got a strange sensation while in the room. Often while falling asleep I would be on the verge of completely dozing off but then completely unprovoked an image of a very tall, intimidating being standing at the edge of my bed just watching me would wake me up.

Anyway I figured I would explain that considering the dream I had.

I don't rememeber the details very well, but I do remember the basics of the dream. It was common in this dream for a person to have a demon or some kind of creature with them. The demons or creatures I believe represented a part of that specific person that is impossible to unleash. Only certain people had this creature and for lack of better words the creature was a part of the people possesing one.

Throughout the dream I was running from people, they were trying to punish me for having one of these creatures. I remember him too, he could change color, was very tall and very thin. He was usually a white-ish green or just a light green color. He could fit in extrememly tight places much like a spider. He could go so far as to disfigure himself to stay inconspicuous. I don't rememeber him having eyes either. But his skin, I could feel his skin, very similar to a frogs skin.

The part of the dream I remember the most is why I decided to write about it here. I was hiding behind a door, and it very was dark. The creature was on my shoulders with his hands on my neck. I remember feeling his hands on my neck so well I can still feel it now while I am writing this. The thing is, the initial impression of these creatures was, even though they were basically counter parts of a human, they were superior in the sense that they knew and could do things that humans couldn't. A human gave them a incarnate form but they pre-existed before obtaining a solid form. In a sense they were individual beings but in another they were dependant on a human to exist at all. I believe eventually both being became dependant on eachother to exist after living together for a certain amount of time.

They needed eachother to survive. While we were hiding he was clutching to me for protection. But we were both terrified. That part alone was very comforting, for obvious reasons, but he was not something of this world.

Also, please excuse errors throughout this post. I just don't have the patience to read through this for a 4th time, nor really the brain capacity at this point.

[antarrishu]

Sounds to me as if this could be connected to a place. The room where you were sleeping could very well be an entrance /exit to a lost reality where entities that did not pass on come and go through to participate in this world. This gives them the memory of being alive. The being knows how you feel and can relate to alien off worlders and so communicates with you in this manner so as to not scare you and to give you a feeling of peace rather than the objection and repulsion you may have if it shows its real self. It is a deciever most likely.There are often signs of its arrival or shortly before. Also sometimes it can be grounded by a mirror or other very old object in the room? Also you might be careful if you find truth to what I say and consider closeing the portal, because it is very easy to become the host for this type of energy if you are ill or in a weakened condition. Also it is not adviseable to allow a child to sleep in this room untill you discover the truth or it could be taken. The first sign is a high fever that arises suddenly for no apparent reason. If this does happen get out immediatly. You should have a close friend come and join you and lay down in the bed together, with soft light close your eyes and breathe slowly and deeply. The precursor sounds should come first and then once in the entities are able to be seen and felt even with your eyes closed. If nothing happens, it could be your subconscious, in that case just don't mind **** yourself about it.

[Ockham]

That was something my friend and I ended up discussing. There was a mirror in the closet when I moved in. A strange one for that matter. It had a chipped edge. The shape of it alone was different. I left that mirror there, at the time when I moved I didn't have room to bring it.

Though the room itself was never frightening the hallway outside my door was. I remember numerous times not wanting to open the door. But I would anyways. I kept thinking there was something standing there. There were even instances where my friends didn't want to open the door. The most memorable was when a friend and I were in my room and we were expecting someone else to show up, well my friend went to the door to open it and check if they were there but she instantly froze and stopped dead in her tracks. She slowly backed away from the door with a kind of amused at herself look. I asked what was wrong, she said she just got really scared. It got to the point that I locked the door. This is before she knew anything about the room. Turns out my friend who was outside had the same feeling. My bedroom door was right next to the front door. She said she didn't want to open the door either.

If there was something in that house I have to assume there were two. A very short and skinny one with a larger head that I usually only thought about in the hallway and the tall one in my room. The smaller one was evil, absoluetly evil. Anytime I thought about it I would get terrified. There were times that I would just lock my door because I was so terrified. The strange thing is I never had nightmares in that house.

The taller one was intimidating, but not in a threatening way. I never really feared for my safety. Though towards the end of my stay in that house I think he left.

[antarrishu]

Case closed.

[Duoshoe]

but is it

it sounds like something I have heard about out here is washington with a few places I have lived and lived by

I always had a fear of looking at window at night (you know when all you see is like a mirroired image of the room you are in) I always new some thing was looking at me and I couldn't what it was but thins wasn;t just at night and just with outside windows it was any window that, the mirrior thing happends on darken rooms/ those windows in the deep ends of some pools

I know that someday I'll be looking out one and a light will come on behind it and I'll see what ever it is looking at me and I know that it will scare the bajizzis out of me
so it kind of sounds like the samething but with this particular door one day you would open that door and then it would be there looking back at you


hmm Case Closed not to sure

[Ockham]

Washington seems to be the place to be when you want to see something strange. I lived there for 11 years, and am planning on moving back this year. Something I did notice was that majority of my friends there had at least one encounter with something they couldn't explain, otherwise thought to be paranormal. Whether it was UFOS, aliens, ghosts, ball lightning (well as she put it) or just orbs, things moving on their own. All of them at least had something to tell a story about.

[antarrishu]

D, what you have is probably a phobeia. What struck me while reading your post is that you ahve probably in a past life had a very ugly run-in with an insane person.Usually what you fear most is the unknown, but in this case I really think what you see is something entirely different. You would benifit by doing a really cool meditation sometime when you are ready that is. It is very simple and you may have heard of this one already. Ok what you do is light a candle behind yourself as you stand before a mirror. You may also use soft lighting if that is all you have or are comfortable with. Then After taking a couple of deep slow cleansing breath's begin rather loudly and WITHOUT blinking Repeat "Who am I?" continue repeating this and gradually begin making the words more and more quiet. Your eyes may begin to feel like they are dry or burning, but not to worry it is a technique of your mind to maintain controll.This also is a technique in training yourself to know that you are not the body. In this exercise you let go of the conscious mind and instead tune into your subconscious being. Trust yourself and it can be profound. Eventually you will internalize your words and then silence, peace. What you will see is amazing, it is just a reflection of your prior self or selves more likely.It is a beautiful meditation and it just may help you to face this reflective fear. When you are done, and when you lay down to bed, before going to sleep just repeat the same process of loudly and then quietning down untill the silence surrounds you. While doing this technique or meditation, Lightly suck up on your anus as if holding off a bowl movement while slowley taking a deep breath thru your nose and then gently exhale from your pursed lips, while you simutainiously release your spinter muscle.This is done while making the sound "Aahhhhhhhhh" Just let it roll as long as you can at first, Aaahhhhh, relaxing with this sound will regenerate you and help you to be more centered and content. Or you can just enjoy the rush you get everytime you think of a reflective surface! I do love certain adrenalin rushes too. I have done entire intensive groups where I was supposed to have a partner and did not, well I used my reflection in the glass at night, it was very embarrasing at first, but then once I flowed with it it had a transforming force that showed me much about my own balance.

[antarrishu]

Ockham, Why D.C. ? work or something? I shake my head when I think of anyone actually living there. That would be the #1 place to hit for terrorists. And yes I can imagine that there would be alot of dis connected souls. There are alot of disconnected souls there all the time even among the living. You have to be where you feel to be and not live in fear of location, but then I would say the same if you said you were moving to the base of Mnt. Saint Helens.

[antarrishu]

I don't mean to sound so know it all guys really, but ANYTHING Paranormal is my genre. I have lived enough to see some very very strange sights. I wonder if some of the experiences that have come were for my eyes only or if maybe someday i can give some much needed awnsers to someone just like I was at one time and there was no support system for paranormal phenomenon. Did I spell phenom right?

[Ockham]

Sorry, I meant State. Should have clarified. I forget that there are two mostly because I have only lived in Washington state. I wouldn't mind living at the base of a volcano active or not, it gives life more excitement. I tend to search for things to excite me, which is usually cause by some form of catastrophe. Strange really, I love the idea of society collapsing on itself and then rebuilding. I think it is nessicary to start over to create a more balanced system. However I then realize that so many people would not survive, there is a chance that I wouldn't or the people I care about. When hurricane Katrina hit I wanted to fly over there and help as many people as I could in their most primitive form. With out rules and order. Things were in ruins and in a sense it was beautiful. Humans were reduced to surviving the way we originally did, or at least trying. Of course, now I just sound cryptic and irrational. I can't explain it the way I feel it unfortunately.

You don't sound like a know it all Rishu. I think you just want to help. I should try that meditation, however meditation has never worked for me. I have never been able to completely shut off my mind, stop thinking and just relax. If I spend too much time trying I get bored and lose interest.

[antarrishu]

Oh Ockham you sound perfect for the journey home. In most cases the old style meditations are just another ploy to keep you from discovering your own inner truth.NOBODY can or will sit and chant repeatdly OMMMM. It has never done anyone any good. It is simply a device to find the silence between the om's. But as with most things in time it is misrepresented and taken too literally.A person has many lives to live before you can just sit silently and watch the bamboo grow. There are so many dynamic meditations where you dont have to be concerned about your mind.It is difficult to find the time or the patience to just sit and meditate, it takes alot of disapline for one, and that is something that is hard to do. Anything can be meditation , all that is needed is "Awareness". No matter what you do if you do it with total awareness then it is meditation. Good or bad makes no difference in the end it is all just energy. What is important is awareness. So if you are sitting silently watching the clouds roll by, do it with out the mind and the suitcase of your apst to interfer. Instead with simple awareness this can be a transforming force. Instead of thinking "Oh this is so beautiful and full of colors and the birds singing seem to be orchestrated", just become the witness, without judgements, watching , then awareness has a chance to enter into your being, you transend the experience from a matter of mind to a sharing of the moment.This is the real meditation and each day so many opportunities come, and without awareness they are lost for all eternity. If it is a fight, fight! If it is compassion become compassion,if it is cleaning your toilet or washing your car, or painting a picture or writting a book, just allow your inner truth to supply the originality. No man can become original of thought or deed without awareness. Meditation is just awareness in all you do.

[William One Sac]

The reason there are so many parallel worlds and dimensions is due to quantum matrix thought change! Have you ever looked back on your life and wondered what IF?

[antarrishu]

Do you mean the thought matrix as in what ever your mind can conceive is a possible reality happening somewhere?

[William One Sac]

I have traveled through time, instantly leaped dimensions even from a waking state as well as enter higher density levels! I have not been one to actively reveal this knowledge but more and more I am becoming aware that it is necessary for people to understand
some powerful resources that they have that have been ignored or overlooked in the past due to a lack of knowledge!

[Ockham]

Too much knowledge corrupts

[celestine]

The most memorable was when a friend and I were in my room and we were expecting someone else to show up, well my friend went to the door to open it and check if they were there but she instantly froze and stopped dead in her tracks. She slowly backed away from the door with a kind of amused at herself look. I asked what was wrong, she said she just got really scared. It got to the point that I locked the door. This is before she knew anything about the room. Turns out my friend who was outside had the same feeling. My bedroom door was right next to the front door. She said she didn't want to open the door either.

Okay, just reading that and remembering made me uneasy.

[JackRandom]

it sounds like something I have heard about out here is washington with a few places I have lived and lived by

I always had a fear of looking at window at night (you know when all you see is like a mirroired image of the room you are in) I always new some thing was looking at me and I couldn't what it was but thins wasn;t just at night and just with outside windows it was any window that, the mirrior thing happends on darken rooms/ those windows in the deep ends of some pools

I know that someday I'll be looking out one and a light will come on behind it and I'll see what ever it is looking at me and I know that it will scare the bajizzis out of me
so it kind of sounds like the samething but with this particular door one day you would open that door and then it would be there looking back at you


I can really identify with this Duo, as can a few of my friends out here in Washington (state). One of the most sever manifestations of this was when a friend of mine was sleeping, facing the window. He dreamed that suddenly a badly mutilated human face pressed itself against the glass and started trying to claw its way in. The dream was so vivid that he no longer sleeps in rooms with windows unless they can be covered, with drapes.

I'd say that his fears are groundless but I've had similar nightmares before and I myself keep my drapes drawn at all times when I sleep. Oddly enough, my window is unbarred and that doesn't bother me a bit. Its as if seeing the thing will give it power over me, and without that it cant enter. Overworked nerves? Over active imaginations? perhaps. But the nightmares are years apart from each other, very similar in their description (he described a man, I described a woman) and geographically close, within a quarter mile, probably less.

[celestine]

just goes to show you there's lots of paranormal. activity everywhere

And jack, your signature troubles me :P

[Ockham]

Okay, just reading that and remembering made me uneasy.


Ah yes, finally your identity has been revealed. I will now give you a code name.

..

Lisa Simpson

[celestine]

Ockham, my code name has to be more thought out than that crap.

Besides, you've used it before.

[JackRandom]

Celestine, why wasn't I told you had a code name?

And as far as my signature goes.. some people collect pennies, I prefer lives...

And finally, where exactly was this hallway/mirror/room? I'd like to check it out someday. Just because I can't really appreciate something until I've experienced it myself.

[celestine]

I don't think I remember the mirror. Just that hallway

[William One Sac]

Sometimes I dream of a man who follows me. His featres are all hidden in the shadows. This guy always follows me, but maintains a distance from me, he never tries to get too close to me. But the thing is I can never escape from him. It's weird. He really terrorfies me for some reason that I don't fully understand. He wears a black hat and a long trenchcoat. And no matter what I do he maintains his distance from me. If I fly to get away, when I am getting ready to land I see him on the ground.

[antarrishu]

That's just creepy WOS, remember that dreams are just the unconscious needing processing in a hecktic life. What part of yourself does the man represent?

[Ockham]

Sometimes I dream of a man who follows me. His featres are all hidden in the shadows. This guy always follows me, but maintains a distance from me, he never tries to get too close to me. But the thing is I can never escape from him. It's weird. He really terrorfies me for some reason that I don't fully understand. He wears a black hat and a long trenchcoat. And no matter what I do he maintains his distance from me. If I fly to get away, when I am getting ready to land I see him on the ground.

Is there a part of yourself you are trying to ignore or get away from? Or maybe even a person? Thats all I can gather from your description. Forgive me if I cross a line, I do not intend to offend you. Frankly I only considered it because it is something I have been struggling with as well. Did you consider that maybe it is not him that is maintaining distance it is you? I ask because well, being human I have to understand that I have many parts of myself that I am not exactly fond of. However, in the last few months I have been forced to recognize.

Is it possible that this man is a part of yourself you have neglecting? In denial or rather intentionally ignoring? It occured to me as a possibility when you said it terrified you.

[William One Sac]

I don't know Ockham. I am pretty well self developed and am at peace with myself. One thing I realized a long time ago is that the things that we don't like about ourselves, are the things that are hardest for us to accept about ourself. For example, if someone calls me an asshole, my reaction would be to say, "No I'm not, you are!" But then one day, years ago, it occurred to me that maybe I was an asshole. I certainly didn't want to be, but it just so happened that I was. That realization was a huge step in personal growth for me. No one is perfect after all.

I have some health issues, so maybe I am trying to flee from that. But the paranoid part of me says it is a demon and that it is what made me sick. This feeling is strongest right before medication time! lol

[Ockham]

Hmm.

I absolutely love self development. It's been my muse for the last four months. It makes the unbearable situations bearable.

From my own expereince I would pin that dream as some form of denial. But I don't personally know you, so it would be hard for me to accurately try and analyze your dreams. But it could possibly stem back to the health problems as did your prison dreams. Or at least thats what I gathered.

However a thought occurs; have you tried talking to him? I would suggest it. It may add another peice to the puzzle. I would also suggest not running from him. Change the situation, chase him.

[GlobalJoe]

My question concerns attachment? About 6 months ago, I was frequenting a very large cemetary during my lunch hour and spending some time there for lunches. It seems weird to me now but it was an interesting site to explore with many large trees. manicured bushes and beautiful lawns and gardens. It was spring time and everything was blooming. This cemetary happens to have many famous people there and I would ride around and look at the various names on the monuments and mausoliums.
It happened that on one late afternoon, I went to the dentist for a filling to be re-placed after it had fallen out. During this day, I had eaten lunch at the cemetary. My dentist replaced filling and everything was normal as dentist visits go. That night, I developed the worst pain in my jaw and area around the tooth that I just could not sleep. I had severe pain like I never had before and it was more than just pain. I can only describe that I felt physically terrible. This had never happened to me before and I was in complete agony. I went back to the dentist and he took x-rays and looked me over and could not explain what was causing my condition. He prescribed me penicillen and tylenol 3 for the pain. I began taking the pills and within a couple of hours, I started to feel okay--Really OK--
Thinking of my visits to the cemetary, I just a had a strong feeling that my extreme pain and discomfort was connected in some crazy way. I said a number of prayers and doused myself with holy water and it was only after the holy water that I felt a lot better.
Has this type of thing ever happened to you?